…Beethoven, Tchaikovsky, Nono…? This morning I woke up listening to Beethoven’s 5th Symphony. It was raining, so I covered myself and decided to remain lethargic. But the initial Allegro was getting into me as water does, through everywhere, and my spirit was being seized with an indefinable energy.

I remembered how the Fifth was for Beethoven the expression of success against the Fate after years of struggle, and suddenly the 15-M came to my mind… and I thought that maybe the 15-M sounded like Beethoven: they are both full of energy in movement, both of them have an ethic message behind their names, and they believe, without question, in mankind’s goodness to change the world.

Therefore, without realising, I went out of the lethargy. I thought: “Definitely, today I can take on the world.” And I went out.

But the truth is that it was still raining, in fact it was pouring… I watched the wrapped up people wearing dark clothes, and I felt that, when it is raining, brown looks browner, and black looks blacker. And I found myself humming the final Adagio of Tchaikovsky’s 6th Symphony, “Pathétique” (link). And the 15-M came again to my mind… and to my heart… I felt that maybe the 15-M, actually, sounded like Tchaikovsky; that both of them express themselves by “showing” intensely their feelings; and that in both of them, as Grieg said, “its sadness is so exacerbated that borders with the madness; it is beautiful and good, but deeply unfortunate”
And that the same Ode to Joy with which Beethoven finally showed to the world his faith in Humanity had inspired Tchaikovsky in his beginnings, but the Russian finished saying goodbye to life with this painful and doomed Pathétique, the proof of the unchangeable fate…

When, at night, I came back home, I got into bed and turned on the radio, looking forward to relaxing… and falling asleep. But the music that was sounding was “Como una ola de fuerza y luz” by Nono (link), and my mind got on alert: the 15-M again… my heart felt a lot of anxiety, and I thought:

Could the 15-M be not even a success or a failure facing the fate? Could it be like one of those composers who dive between the ideological commitment and the search for their aesthetics, full of references but without their own personality…?

I intended listening to the three plays consecutively to decide which composer the 15-M sounds like, but it rains, so I have covered myself and I have decided to remain lethargic… I am very tired… and I do not know what to think any more… Can anyone help me?